Today

  My head is a mess today, but in a good way. I think....I mean I don't know (yup is that bad hahah). I wish I could explain myself better but I can't is one of those rare occasions where things in order to be understood need to told and see and feel the body language of the person talking. Ahhg that's the problem with writing when trying to convey such strong emotions one is never sure if the feelings are been convey. So much stuff happen in so little time that my brain has not had the chance to process it, while my heart so engage it and live it  (& felt it) 110%. I feel like I'm not myself is not like me to just let my heart gear me but just this once I feel he's not in the wrong at all.
  I guess the waiting for tomorrow to start start living has gotten a little old for me, recently when face with new challenges and new things I've have asked myself: "if not now, when?" and wow, I'm marveled at how a little change in my mind set has made such a huge change in life. And my brain is working overtime trying to rationalize the currents events and is actually making me second guess myself so much to the point where is not even 9:00 pm and I'm already exhausted from over thinking. I'm not quite sure where this is going or what I'll do but I do know that I don't what to fall prey of fear.