Of losing hope

on days like today I wonder if putting on my "brave face" is really a good thing? I mean I don't wanna emo out on life but how am I not being a hypocrite? I'm exhausted of my "brave face", of keep my head above water, of holding out the hope that maybe just maybe a breakthrough is around the corner, of waiting for "little longer", and actually discover that I've been waiting for quite a long time and that the fact that better things are just around the corner might not be true at all.