January 11, 2013

Fireworks by Chu Yo-han

    Ah, the day is waning, in the western sky, over the 
lonely river, the even pinkish glow is fading.. ah, when 
the sun sets, when the sun sets, night will return without 
fail. I weep alone beneath the apricot tree, but today is the
eight of april and the sound of a crowd flooding the
boulevard betokens festivities to come, so why am I the
only one unable to stifle the tears welling up in my hear? 
    
    Ah, it’s dancing, it’s dancing, the blood red flame, it’s 
dancing. Peering down from the hushed castle gate, the 
odor of water, the odor of sand, when the torc, biting
the night, biting the sky, as if still hungering, bites and 
tears at its own flesh, a solitary youth weighted with a 
darkened heart hurls his blue dream of yesterday into the 
river, yet will the heartless waves suspend its shadow in 
the flow? Ah, there never was a flower that does not wilt 
once cut, yet the thought of my love departed kills the life
in my heart. Ah, well what’s to be done, shall I burn this
heart, shall I slay this sorrow with that flame? Yesterday,
again, dragging my aching feet, I went to her grave to 
find the flowers wasted by winter had given way to 
unforeseen blooms. Will love’s spring eve return, I won-
der? Ah, with my heart freely bared, this night, into this
water… might someone take pity on me… just then:
“T’ung!” “T’ang!” Roman candles burst, spewing fiery
blossoms, startled me back to my senses, the hubbub of 
the spectators seems to mock me, to scold me. Ah, with 
ever deeper passion I want to live, even submerged in 
smoke like yon flames, even in the agony of suffocating
flames, I want to lead a fiery life, and the sudden throb of 
the heart is none but my own…
   
    When the warm April wind rushes across the river, 
high on the hill of Chōngnyu Tower by Moran Peak, a 
dusky crowd of people sways, with each burst of wind the 
flame-dyed waves burn with mad laughter, spooked fish 
take cover in the sand, waves slap the ships broadside, 
figures pace to and fro with a drowsy rhythm—flickering 
shadows, rising peals of laughter beneath lanterns hang-
ing overhead, a child Gisaeng warbles at the top of her 
voice, the fireworks igniting sudden lust now are tire-
some, one glass, another glass, yet another, the endless
wine no longer welcome, lying listless in the filthy bot-
tom of a boat, idle tears redden my eyes, weary of the 
incessant drumming, men with leering eyes leap from the 
boat, unable to endure their rekindled desire, as the 
dying candles left behind the doze on the hems of rumpled 
skirts, the squeaking of the oars, as if the sound signified 
something, presses still harder on my heart…
    
    Ah, the river waters are laughing, laughing, a 
grotesque laugh it is, the laugh and icy river laughs looking 
up at a pitch dark sky. Ah, the boat is gaining, the boat is 
gaining, sadly, sadly squeaking at every gush of wind, the 
boat is gaining… 
    
    Row the boat, all the way to Nungna Island asleep 
there in the distance, slice through the Taedong’s swift 
currents. Turn your boat straight toward the hill where 
your beloved stands barefoot waiting. What of the cold 
wind rising in the waves’ wake? What of the noise of that 
grotesque laughter? What- for you- of the darkened 
heart of a youth bereft of love, though without shadows 
there can be no light. Oh, only do not forgo this your 
day of certainty. Oh, oh, burn, burn! This vey night! 
Your red torch, your red lips, your eyes and your red 
tears… 

by: Chu Yo-Han 

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