You Again

  Still today I keep on reminding myself that I can't force you to care. All of the times when I did something for you keep on replaying in my head & as I do, the more I realize how little you care there I was having these grand gestures for you & you simply did not care.
  What hurts me the most is that I knew then & I know now that you are a warm and caring person, who takes details, no matter how small into consideration yet mine always seem(ed) to go unnoticed. I always got(get) the worse of you.
   But I guess that's what I accounted for not being quite a friend, quite a lover or quite a feud. It feels so weird to be remembering these things & even more to be writing them but I guess I need to let them out, vent them & throw them to the wind.