Sometimes I wish

     With all my might that things were like in the movies, because I'm at that point were I have made really important decisions and I'm determined to achieve those things I long for yet it is nothing like in the movies, you know? That oh so very important set of scenes that follow after the lead has made it's mind, and he trains, or studies, or dances or do whatever it is, and just looks so focus, so set, so on fire and in the end he succeeds. I wonder why am I not like that?After my decisions were made I did not get a reel of nice scenes, I got coal...That's what I got. I find myself justifying my decision with everyone including myself. Which is pretty darn exhausting. There's still a long road ahead of me and I'm already this tired.